Journal Entry : Self-Respect And Thoughts

Honestly right now in my life alot of choices are being thrown in my face, oppertunities are being lost & found, and my decisions are crucial. I found that I'm the type of dude until recently that always discredit's himself profusely, but the reason is I feel that all the things I'm doing are expected of me, by people. The weird thing is nobody gives a fuck so why should I care, maybe I sub-consciously believe I need to be the best at what I do becuase GOD has plans for me, but thats going out on a limb. As much as I feel what I've accomplished is original I constantly * downthink my work, half the time I do things halfass anyway, partly due to a continuing childhood-adultlife factor .

Which brings me to a realization I had thanks to a friend that I should appreciate my work and talents for what it is, not how others treat it . For instance let's say you sketch up a new MP3 player invention, you show your friends, and you might get a couple of "cool " and "that's whassup" 's but you don't fully appreciate it after, because they didn't tell you " man, honestly that shit is bonkers ! " .

• The bottom line is appreciate your work like it's a work of GOD and life will seem limitless . Expand on every idea you have and whether or not you go through with it give it thought don't just put it on the backburner .
  
  * downthink - to discredit consciously as a form of critic . ( yeah i just created this word but it sounds credible doesn't it? lol )
  
  " I'm doing pretty good, as far as genius' go! " - Kanye : Barry Bonds

Sincerely,

Julian